Last Post of 2004

Well, it has been a crazy year, one that I am glad is behind me. I wish I would wake up tomorrow and it will all have been a dream 2004, didn't exist ala J.R.. But I know that will not happen. I do hope I wake up tomorrow with renewed strength, happiness and vigor for life.

I did have the year peppered with some good things, the health of my babies, the purchasing of a new beautiful house, the strength of a good marriage, the love of my family and even the new friends I made on here.

I hope 2005 is a good one for you guys, thanks for stopping by my tiny place on the web and listening (and sometimes caring) about what I say.
Be safe tonight!

Good News

I am going to be an Aunt again! My sister is pregnant with her second baby and is due June 30. We are very excited and good news for the baby, I am a great Aunt. It doesn't get better then this Aunt I will tell you.

This news makes me feel positive about 2005, new life and a new start.

B O R I N G

Everything is so boring the week after Christmas. No new TV shows, friends are all away & even the internet is boring.
I think I have a bit of the "after Christmas blues"
I am bored!

True Story

Someone found this blog by searching for "semen slippers"
Gross and gross.

Christmas

All in all it was a good Christmas, the babies had a great time and loved all of their gifts. They are completely enthralled in their new kitchen, baby stroller, baby shopping cart and Dora doll. Very sweet. If you asked them what they got from Santa they will say "presents!".
Having the kids made Christmas easier for me. Although it was sad & much too quiet without my Dad my children filled the hole in my heart a bit.

My Christmas was good, I got a lot of clothes, not enough white socks though. You know you are old when you ask for and get white socks. Sad. Although I had told E to get me isotoner slippers (like the ones someone suggested in Nordstrom) or the great slippers from Anthropology, he got me big fat thick slippers which he got me last year & I still have. Why the same ones? Why not the ones I asked for? Why the opposite of what I asked for? I was going to return them but he ripped them open and asked me to try them on. I didn't have the heart to tell him.

I want to thank everyone who posted or emailed me about my pity post about my Dad. It means a lot to me and I really want to Thank you. I will have good days & bad and I am glad you guys don't start throwing fruit and telling me to quit whining.

Christmas

When I have more time to post I will write a more detailed Christmas post. We did have a good time, although quiet without my Dad. The babies loved Christmas and loved all of their gifts. It was very sweet and reliving Christmas through your children's eyes is better then when you were a child.
E loved the drill, thanks guys!

Thank you to all the people who wrote nice posts & emails about my Dad. It means a lot to me, and I appreciated all of the kind words.

Merry Christmas!

Have a great holiday and everyone be warm, happy & safe.

Feeling Sorry for Myself

Go ahead and skip this one, I am just going to rant & rave and give myself a pity party. I can and will though, because this is my blog, but I don't want to bring anyone down because this is a great time of year where you should be happy & jolly and I am not. I don't know if I ever will be.

I am sad. I miss my Father and I cannot do anything about it. I am pissed because he was a great, sweet man who never had a harsh word for anyone, unlike his oldest daughter. Why the fuck would a great man like that be taken away from his 4 children and 3 grandchildren at the age of 53? Why the fuck are their rapist, murders, abusers living a full long life and my father is under the cold dark Earth? It makes no sense and I am pissed.
I remember last year on Christmas eve, it was the first Christmas for my babies, and I was slightly overwhelmed. The knowledge that my Father was sick and it may be the last Christmas Eve with him made me sick to my stomach. If you asked me what my favorite memory of my life was I would have always told you Christmas Eve. My Father made it magical and special. To have to face the holiday this year without him is unbearable. I don't know how I am going to get through it. I wish I could hide under the covers only to emerge on January 2, 2005. That way I would be somewhat happy that 2004 was over, because it was the worst year of my entire life.
I am pissed that my siblings may not ever remember Christmas with my Father, and that my children and nephew never will. To them he will only be a face in a picture.
I know God knew I could never bear this burden of being without my Dad so he gave me my children, two at a time, because my burden would be so great. If I didn't have them I probably would have killed myself for the thought of living a long life without my Dad did not compute with me. I could not fathom it.
I still can't.

This Christmas I will be grateful for my babies and my husband who stuck with me even when I actually did hide under the covers. I will try to be strong for my family who misses him as much as I do. I will love them and tell them so, because I know how precious and fast moving time really is.

Sooo Wrong

It is now officially 4:36 and I am awake. There is something wrong with this picture. I can't turn my head off. I jsut keep worrying about money and thinking about all the things I have to do tomorrow, excuse me, today.

Commercials That Make me Want to Kick My TV Screen In

I am attacked each day with these commercials this time of year, that make me want to spork my own eyes out. They are in no particular order:

The 1987 commercial, that sucked then, that they keep playing at Christmas time like it is some kind of American tradition or some shit. The one with the feathered hair boy who sneaks home for Christmas and then he and his sister make shitty coffee for his parents to surprise them. Enough already with this commercial.

Any luxury car commercial where the gift is the over priced car sitting in the driveway with a huge bow on it. 1% of the population can afford to give a $65k car for Christmas and I don't think they need a commercial to remind them that a car may be a good gift for their spouse. Up yours Lexus.

The stupid ass outback steakhouse radio commercials with their catchy, original commercials make me want to ram my car into a brick wall. We get it. Enough.

F.U.

A big FU to channel 6 news here for interrupting Oprah (on suburban teenage prostitutes BTW) for "breaking News" that TO is out because he broke his leg or some shit. Is that breaking news? Even in Philly? Nope. Nobody cares, too fucking bad, now let me get back to Oprah, man.

P.S. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

PPS it is pronounced EAGLES not Iggles. fucking losers.

How Geeks Decorate

How computer geeks decorate their tree:

http://www.mediatinker.com/blog/images/cpuTree.html

The Sickies

My poor daughter is sick. I first knew something was wrong when she wanted to sit with me on the couch, she is a very busy 23 month old and has far too much pressing business usually to take more then 2 seconds out to snuggle.
Then came the runny nose, the cough and the lack of appetite. I even made cranberry orange bread, whish she and her brother refer to as "cake" and she didn't even want a bite. She didn't want her organic green juice that she loves, a bottle, yogurt, cheerios or even pizza. My poor kids was miserable.
Nothing makes you feel more helpless then when your child is sick. Especially with a cold because you know there is nothing you can do for her, except keep fluids in her which was near impossible. I even toyed with the thought of forcing water in her, but quickly tossed that idea.
Thank good ness Baby A was such a good boy this weekend, thus somewhat balancing the crabby factor in our house, at least for two days.

Shit, could it be colder here in NJ today?!?

Opinions Needed

I am getting E a cordless drill for Christmas. Which ones are good? Which brand is better Crafsman or Black & Decker? TIA.

Somebody Stop Me

I can't go shopping anymore, I have an addiction and I need to be stopped. Why is it that I can find mounds of things for myself when I am supposed to be shopping for other people, but when I try to find something for myself for an occasion there is nothing?

I keep buying myself stuff while I am supposed to be buying for other people! Eek. I already told E I bought stuff for myself & consider that while shopping for me, so he won't buy me too much. I am reassured though, that he knows I am saying that out of obligation, and that he should continue his shopping as usual.
A girl can never have too many gifts.

$*(&$@)

Damn blogger for crapping up my post. I so don't feel like typing it over.

I am happy to report I am 75% done with my Christmas shopping. Thank goodness.

I overheard someone at Kohl's yesterday saying she was going top buy Kenny a tie tac because he doesn't have one. Wah. Kenny doesn't have one because they are out. I even doubt they were ever in. Scary shit.

So what are you getting your significant others for Christmas? E is getting tools. The babies are getting a big Dora doll, a new puzzle, remote control little cars and little people. Who knows what I am getting, E didn't even know I had a wish list on Amazon. E said he tried to get me the Felicity dvd set but nobody had it. I was like "duh, Amazon". He was all "oh yeah, Amazon, I forgot about Amazon." Then we went & smoked a doobie.
Just kidding.

I Wanna Know

I want to know what makes a man attractive outside of just good looks, or physically attractive to you? I was talking with my friends about this and we all had different answers, so I want to know what you crazy cats think. Men you can answer what you think makes a woman attractive.

I think if a man remembers something small you say in passing and then brings it up later, because he remembers it or he buys it for you. Thoughtfulness is sexy. I think a good sense of humor is attractive, obviously and someone who is smart. A man who is knowledgeable about current affairs, sports newest inventions etc. Someone you can bring anywhere & he can talk to anyone.
A man who smells good, not bathed in cologne, but smells good is extremely attractive.
What do you think?

Things I have Been Known to Do

Things I have been known to do:

Dance spastically in my car (including doing a mean robot) for the enjoyment of otheres cool enough to ride with me

Eat cold spaghetti or egg rolls for breakfast

Slide my cat across the hardwood floor because he likes it

Call the grandmother at gymboree wearing a belly shirt and a belly button ring with spandex lace up pants ( all gold lame mind you) a "post menapausal belly dancing freak"

Give "the Shocker" (http://www.rotten.com/library/language/the-finger/shocker/) in various pictures with friends

regift

What I have Been Known To Do

I have been known to dance spastically in a car, do a wicked robot, or even flash people in other cars for the amusement of myself and a few select friends. Friends that are cool enough to ride with me that is.


Yes, I am a Mother now, and yes, I do need help.

I am a Sick Individual

I may have been a mother/housewife for too long. I was watching TV when what I thought was a promo for a new show came on. I thought it looked very interesting, a newly married couple returns from their honeymoon to their new house. Only it is too small, it is a tiny house. Turns out it is only a commercial for Geico, which made me feel like a fool. Shit, it sounded like it could be a promising show.

I may need help.

You can get with this, or you can get with that

Good Weekend. Good family that visited, although as a rule, I really don't take parenting advice from people that have no children and do not want them either. Just a silly little quirk I have.
No really, leave your advice for someone who wants it because I am not buying.

I went to a Christening yesterday, really it was a dedication because the Mother is Christian and the Father is Jewish so it was pretty nondenominational but that is fine by me. It was a nice day, nothing too exciting happened.
My sister in law has left and now I am just trying to get back into my routines. I still have about 25% of my Christmas shopping to do. E is hard, this year he may get tools, because he wants them and because it is a easy gift. The babies are done, but as soon as Christmas is over I have to start planning their 2nd birthday.. I can hardly believe my babies are going to be 2! Time really goes fast when you have kids, faster then I wanted to believe time can go.
On Wendsday I will go to the cemetery because it would have been my Father's 54th Birthday. It is a very sad time of year for me, because my heart still aches every day for him. I couldn't bear to not send him his Christmas/Birthday gift this year so I sent it to the next best person, his closest brother. I know he will enjoy the gift as much as my Dad and I know he misses his best friend too.

MIA

I will be MIA for the next couple of days. My sister in law & brother in law are coming in from FL for 4 days. It is going to be a jam packed visit. Don't you worry I will be back with plenty of stories I am sure.
I even made her vegetarian chili. Now that is love.

Hair Salon

Today was the day for my touch up on my highlights. I have started to go to the salon right by my house which kills me because I have been going to my hairdresser in north Jersey for 15 years and I get a hefty discount. I just think driving 1.5 hours for a hair appointment is a little much at this point.
This was my second visit to this salon and I know I am slightly out of the loop because of my discount but really a tough up highlight and a blow out is $135? Not even a trim I tell you. The blow out is the biggest scam in the book, because I have nowhere to go with my new fabu hair but I do not want to leave the salon with soaking wet hair either. I just want it semi dry to brave the car ride home in & save myself $35 for other things, like booze. I just want it dry, no fancy hair drying tricks, no flat iron ,I can do all of that at home. Those bastards are slippery like a fish, charging this kind of scratch. Plus Megan my hair dryout chick almost pulled every hair out of my head while rappid firing questions at me. Easy on the brush there, Meg.
Plus there are 3 separate tips I am required to give, the colorist, the hair dryer/torturer and the wash girl. Bastards!

On a happy note I had two hairgasms during my repeated washings. Score one for Tuesday Girl.

For My Jewish Friends:

http://home.nc.rr.com/keehyun/stuff/jew-heyya.html

Peeps

Why is it that sometimes I enjoy reading people's blogs and then I go and do it? I go and look at their picture. Sometimes it just ruins it and the blog isn't as good as I thought it was. Some people describe them selves as "pretty" or "attractive" and clearly they are not. Some people you just expect to look homely or nerdy and they are attractive. Occasionally it just loses something for me and I don't go back for more.
The same rings true with date sites, chatrooms or blind dates you love the conversation and you just have an expectation of what they are going to look like when they don't, it loses some spark for me.

Also, people you meet that you hate or dislike or suck ruin names for you. Believe me this comes into play big time when you are trying to name people that you are about to give birth to. We had a horrible time picking out names. Names that didn't carry a bad connotation or is a horrible character on TV. I remember throwing out the name Brennan for a boy. E wouldn't go for it because he knew a boy named Timmy Brennan in friggin 1979 that was mean to him. So Brennan was out. I tried to say there was a statute of limitations on names of people you hated, otherwise known as NOPYH, but was shot down. Some names make you think of overweight people, some 90210 cast members, some are better suited for pets, some even a bratty kid you encountered.
What names do you hate for strange reasons?

Happy Hanukkah

Happy Hanukkah to all of my Jewish friends! Mad props. I do know the words to 2 great Hanukkah songs, and will post lyrics if the need be.
As a point of interest, I made homemade choclate chip cookies last night & have eaten about 5 already, piggy! They are friggin good.

Poor Amanda is helping me with my blog, I screwed it up royally, as you can tell, and have to give it some TLC. Thanks in advance to her.

H E L P

I fucked up my blog. I need expert help asap. Any volunteers?

Caught You

I was watching Good Morning America today & I caught Lindsay Lohan lipsincing. Not really a shocker, I know. E sister and her husband are coming in from Florida on Thursday. We are very excited to see them and I am a little nervous about my first house guests in my new house. There are still a million things that are not unpacked yet and a ton of decorating to do.
Oh well.
Yesterday we took the babies to the Picture People to have their pictures taken, what a bad move. The dread I had all day should have told me to just stay home under the covers, but I did not heed that warning. The babies would not stop jumping, they would not sit close together iof one smiled the other was crying or looking away. It was horrible, there was nothing we could do, there will be no Christmas pictures for me this year. I was pissed. Then we took them to see Santa and they did not even cry, they sat on his lap, baby B smiled baby A didn't, but that was ok.
They are fascinated with our Christmas tree but they already broke 2 ornaments. I couldn't even put on about half of our ornaments because I knew babies + tile floor = disaster.
I was right.

Arthur

Today I am just sitting around watching Arthur. Great movie. Has Dudley Moore fell off the Earth? Loving Liza Minelli before she went all crazy.

Did you see this?

http://www.abc.net.au/news/newsitems/200411/s1249440.htm I love dolphins, how great are they?!

Tidbits

• Some points of interest:
• don't try to break into my house because I just installed ADT
• Why is it that when you spell check on blogger it doesn't recognize the word "blog"? Isn't that ridiculous or ironic or something?
• I can't get used to my new keyboard.
• I love original Hamburger Helper.
• I make a mean marinara sauce, minestrone soup and chili. Should I have recipe day on this blog? Like once a week? How fun.
• My right arm underarm hair grows faster them my left. Strange?
• Love, love love the show Lost, it gets better every week. Are you people in this with me?
• I can't shake this cold & horrible cough. Any Chinese herbalists out there that enjoy my blog? I will trade witty banter for cure.

Admit it

Ok who here is going to admit that they will be watching the Nick & Jessica Holiday special tonight? Also tonight is Rudolph the red Nosed reindeer. The best movie of all time.