Monday, December 21, 2009


So. Here we are.
Employed. Happy, excited and so grateful for the best Christmas gift ever.

So, why am I plagued by all the awful thoughts in my head?
The ones that tell me how hard it is going to be and how much work has to come in the next few weeks. The ones that tell me that despite the fact my kids will be so happy to be with their family again, switching them to another new school is going to hurt them.
The same voices who tell me that E's job is for a lot less money and we will moving back to a VERY expensive state and I have to find a job to make up the difference and nobody will even look at my resume since I have been a SAHM for 7 years.

I won't let those voices be heard, I will keep them under all the positive thoughts of all the good things to come.
I will fight my demons with all that I have.

We are excited for this new day with new chances. We will make good on all the promises we made to each other over the past two years.
We will give back to people just like our friends and family did for us when we needed it.
We will not forget all the people who helped us financially, emotionally and spiritually. We can never truly repay them, but we can try.

2010 is going to be a great year. It is going to be hard but great.
I can just feel it.


  1. Love your blog. It's so honest & real!

    You are totally blessed and what a great adventure you will have in 2010. You will set a great example for your kids, working hard and helping them build their future.
    My parents went through the same thing but as kids we never knew their struggle because they made everything so much fun.
    Focus on the positives. Hope it all goes well


  2. I think it's only natural to have those feelings as you face these new - and very exciting and most welcome - changes. You've had a tough go of things lately, so it's natural to have it cross your mind. However, like you said, things are looking up now and you can do a lot with that feeling, and truly, your goals are to be admired.

  3. Woot! Congrats to E and to hell with all the naysayers! It's a start, it's a step up. New year, new job, new possibilities. Good for you!

  4. Just found you through NaBloPoMo and I love it! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!


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