Friday, December 31, 2004
I did have the year peppered with some good things, the health of my babies, the purchasing of a new beautiful house, the strength of a good marriage, the love of my family and even the new friends I made on here.
I hope 2005 is a good one for you guys, thanks for stopping by my tiny place on the web and listening (and sometimes caring) about what I say.
Be safe tonight!
Thursday, December 30, 2004
This news makes me feel positive about 2005, new life and a new start.
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Having the kids made Christmas easier for me. Although it was sad & much too quiet without my Dad my children filled the hole in my heart a bit.
My Christmas was good, I got a lot of clothes, not enough white socks though. You know you are old when you ask for and get white socks. Sad. Although I had told E to get me isotoner slippers (like the ones someone suggested in Nordstrom) or the great slippers from Anthropology, he got me big fat thick slippers which he got me last year & I still have. Why the same ones? Why not the ones I asked for? Why the opposite of what I asked for? I was going to return them but he ripped them open and asked me to try them on. I didn't have the heart to tell him.
I want to thank everyone who posted or emailed me about my pity post about my Dad. It means a lot to me and I really want to Thank you. I will have good days & bad and I am glad you guys don't start throwing fruit and telling me to quit whining.
Monday, December 27, 2004
E loved the drill, thanks guys!
Thank you to all the people who wrote nice posts & emails about my Dad. It means a lot to me, and I appreciated all of the kind words.
Friday, December 24, 2004
Thursday, December 23, 2004
I am sad. I miss my Father and I cannot do anything about it. I am pissed because he was a great, sweet man who never had a harsh word for anyone, unlike his oldest daughter. Why the fuck would a great man like that be taken away from his 4 children and 3 grandchildren at the age of 53? Why the fuck are their rapist, murders, abusers living a full long life and my father is under the cold dark Earth? It makes no sense and I am pissed.
I remember last year on Christmas eve, it was the first Christmas for my babies, and I was slightly overwhelmed. The knowledge that my Father was sick and it may be the last Christmas Eve with him made me sick to my stomach. If you asked me what my favorite memory of my life was I would have always told you Christmas Eve. My Father made it magical and special. To have to face the holiday this year without him is unbearable. I don't know how I am going to get through it. I wish I could hide under the covers only to emerge on January 2, 2005. That way I would be somewhat happy that 2004 was over, because it was the worst year of my entire life.
I am pissed that my siblings may not ever remember Christmas with my Father, and that my children and nephew never will. To them he will only be a face in a picture.
I know God knew I could never bear this burden of being without my Dad so he gave me my children, two at a time, because my burden would be so great. If I didn't have them I probably would have killed myself for the thought of living a long life without my Dad did not compute with me. I could not fathom it.
I still can't.
This Christmas I will be grateful for my babies and my husband who stuck with me even when I actually did hide under the covers. I will try to be strong for my family who misses him as much as I do. I will love them and tell them so, because I know how precious and fast moving time really is.
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
The 1987 commercial, that sucked then, that they keep playing at Christmas time like it is some kind of American tradition or some shit. The one with the feathered hair boy who sneaks home for Christmas and then he and his sister make shitty coffee for his parents to surprise them. Enough already with this commercial.
Any luxury car commercial where the gift is the over priced car sitting in the driveway with a huge bow on it. 1% of the population can afford to give a $65k car for Christmas and I don't think they need a commercial to remind them that a car may be a good gift for their spouse. Up yours Lexus.
The stupid ass outback steakhouse radio commercials with their catchy, original commercials make me want to ram my car into a brick wall. We get it. Enough.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
PPS it is pronounced EAGLES not Iggles. fucking losers.
Monday, December 20, 2004
Then came the runny nose, the cough and the lack of appetite. I even made cranberry orange bread, whish she and her brother refer to as "cake" and she didn't even want a bite. She didn't want her organic green juice that she loves, a bottle, yogurt, cheerios or even pizza. My poor kids was miserable.
Nothing makes you feel more helpless then when your child is sick. Especially with a cold because you know there is nothing you can do for her, except keep fluids in her which was near impossible. I even toyed with the thought of forcing water in her, but quickly tossed that idea.
Thank good ness Baby A was such a good boy this weekend, thus somewhat balancing the crabby factor in our house, at least for two days.
Shit, could it be colder here in NJ today?!?
Friday, December 17, 2004
I keep buying myself stuff while I am supposed to be buying for other people! Eek. I already told E I bought stuff for myself & consider that while shopping for me, so he won't buy me too much. I am reassured though, that he knows I am saying that out of obligation, and that he should continue his shopping as usual.
A girl can never have too many gifts.
Thursday, December 16, 2004
I am happy to report I am 75% done with my Christmas shopping. Thank goodness.
I overheard someone at Kohl's yesterday saying she was going top buy Kenny a tie tac because he doesn't have one. Wah. Kenny doesn't have one because they are out. I even doubt they were ever in. Scary shit.
So what are you getting your significant others for Christmas? E is getting tools. The babies are getting a big Dora doll, a new puzzle, remote control little cars and little people. Who knows what I am getting, E didn't even know I had a wish list on Amazon. E said he tried to get me the Felicity dvd set but nobody had it. I was like "duh, Amazon". He was all "oh yeah, Amazon, I forgot about Amazon." Then we went & smoked a doobie.
I think if a man remembers something small you say in passing and then brings it up later, because he remembers it or he buys it for you. Thoughtfulness is sexy. I think a good sense of humor is attractive, obviously and someone who is smart. A man who is knowledgeable about current affairs, sports newest inventions etc. Someone you can bring anywhere & he can talk to anyone.
A man who smells good, not bathed in cologne, but smells good is extremely attractive.
What do you think?
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Things I have been known to do:
Dance spastically in my car (including doing a mean robot) for the enjoyment of otheres cool enough to ride with me
Eat cold spaghetti or egg rolls for breakfast
Slide my cat across the hardwood floor because he likes it
Call the grandmother at gymboree wearing a belly shirt and a belly button ring with spandex lace up pants ( all gold lame mind you) a "post menapausal belly dancing freak"
Give "the Shocker" (http://www.rotten.com/library/language/the-finger/shocker/) in various pictures with friends
Yes, I am a Mother now, and yes, I do need help.
I may need help.
Monday, December 13, 2004
No really, leave your advice for someone who wants it because I am not buying.
I went to a Christening yesterday, really it was a dedication because the Mother is Christian and the Father is Jewish so it was pretty nondenominational but that is fine by me. It was a nice day, nothing too exciting happened.
My sister in law has left and now I am just trying to get back into my routines. I still have about 25% of my Christmas shopping to do. E is hard, this year he may get tools, because he wants them and because it is a easy gift. The babies are done, but as soon as Christmas is over I have to start planning their 2nd birthday.. I can hardly believe my babies are going to be 2! Time really goes fast when you have kids, faster then I wanted to believe time can go.
On Wendsday I will go to the cemetery because it would have been my Father's 54th Birthday. It is a very sad time of year for me, because my heart still aches every day for him. I couldn't bear to not send him his Christmas/Birthday gift this year so I sent it to the next best person, his closest brother. I know he will enjoy the gift as much as my Dad and I know he misses his best friend too.
Thursday, December 09, 2004
I even made her vegetarian chili. Now that is love.
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
This was my second visit to this salon and I know I am slightly out of the loop because of my discount but really a tough up highlight and a blow out is $135? Not even a trim I tell you. The blow out is the biggest scam in the book, because I have nowhere to go with my new fabu hair but I do not want to leave the salon with soaking wet hair either. I just want it semi dry to brave the car ride home in & save myself $35 for other things, like booze. I just want it dry, no fancy hair drying tricks, no flat iron ,I can do all of that at home. Those bastards are slippery like a fish, charging this kind of scratch. Plus Megan my hair dryout chick almost pulled every hair out of my head while rappid firing questions at me. Easy on the brush there, Meg.
Plus there are 3 separate tips I am required to give, the colorist, the hair dryer/torturer and the wash girl. Bastards!
On a happy note I had two hairgasms during my repeated washings. Score one for Tuesday Girl.
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
The same rings true with date sites, chatrooms or blind dates you love the conversation and you just have an expectation of what they are going to look like when they don't, it loses some spark for me.
Also, people you meet that you hate or dislike or suck ruin names for you. Believe me this comes into play big time when you are trying to name people that you are about to give birth to. We had a horrible time picking out names. Names that didn't carry a bad connotation or is a horrible character on TV. I remember throwing out the name Brennan for a boy. E wouldn't go for it because he knew a boy named Timmy Brennan in friggin 1979 that was mean to him. So Brennan was out. I tried to say there was a statute of limitations on names of people you hated, otherwise known as NOPYH, but was shot down. Some names make you think of overweight people, some 90210 cast members, some are better suited for pets, some even a bratty kid you encountered.
What names do you hate for strange reasons?
As a point of interest, I made homemade choclate chip cookies last night & have eaten about 5 already, piggy! They are friggin good.
Poor Amanda is helping me with my blog, I screwed it up royally, as you can tell, and have to give it some TLC. Thanks in advance to her.
Monday, December 06, 2004
Yesterday we took the babies to the Picture People to have their pictures taken, what a bad move. The dread I had all day should have told me to just stay home under the covers, but I did not heed that warning. The babies would not stop jumping, they would not sit close together iof one smiled the other was crying or looking away. It was horrible, there was nothing we could do, there will be no Christmas pictures for me this year. I was pissed. Then we took them to see Santa and they did not even cry, they sat on his lap, baby B smiled baby A didn't, but that was ok.
They are fascinated with our Christmas tree but they already broke 2 ornaments. I couldn't even put on about half of our ornaments because I knew babies + tile floor = disaster.
I was right.
Saturday, December 04, 2004
Friday, December 03, 2004
Thursday, December 02, 2004
- Some points of interest:
- don't try to break into my house because I just installed ADT
- Why is it that when you spell check on blogger it doesn't recognize the word "blog"? Isn't that ridiculous or ironic or something?
- I can't get used to my new keyboard.
- I love original Hamburger Helper.
- I make a mean marinara sauce, minestrone soup and chili. Should I have recipe day on this blog? Like once a week? How fun.
- My right arm underarm hair grows faster them my left. Strange?
- Love, love love the show Lost, it gets better every week. Are you people in this with me?
- I can't shake this cold & horrible cough. Any Chinese herbalists out there that enjoy my blog? I will trade witty banter for cure.