Recap

Besides the kids not napping, Baby B is doing great going to the bathroom on the potty. Baby A not so much, but that is ok.
I am just now thinking about what I will do when they really are potty trained & I have to take them potty in public restrooms. Restrooms I never use unless it is dire straits because I am so germ phobic. I know there will be a lot of "DON'T TOUCH ANYTHING!" and carrying of my own antibacterial soaps. God I am a freak.

We have decorated the house for Christmas already & E is finishing up the outdoor lights as I type this. I am very excited for the holidays this year and I am definitely in the baking/cooking mood too which is nice.

I am 95% done with my shopping too. Can you believe it, 95% done and it is not even December yet, that is a record for me. I have a large family too, so it is a lot to plan and all of E's family lives away so you have to ship that stuff.

My $300 (on sale) Maclaren stroller broke when we were in Florida and now I have to ship it to them so they can repair it. I mean ridiculous is a fair word to describe this mess. A $300 stroller should be made sturdy and strong, the freakin metal bent as I was unfolding it. I am strong, but that strong? Maclaren customer service sucks too.

I am still so addicted to my nano. I love, love, love it and I use it every day. I am joining the gym after the new year so I hope to use it more there!
That about sums it up around here. I can't wait for Lost tonight, it will be the last one until January, so I will be in withdrawals.

I Need a Drink

My kids are not napping again and it is driving me wild. They were getting into good habits but since E has been home, everything is crap again. They now wake up at least 2x a night crying about the light not being on, or that they want to play or just nonsense because they are just talking in their sleep. They are no well rested in the morning, and are fighting, crabby, crying so I put them to bed instead of waiting until after lunch. They just won't take a nap unless I stay in there with them, but they have to learn to fall asleep on their own.
Does anyone want almost three year old twins?

On a good note, Baby B is just about potty trained. She just did it herself, because I always forget to ask or push the issue. Now since she has started Baby A stopped going on the potty.
These two are strange and giving me a run for my money!

Sexy

There is nothing sexier to me then a man shopping alone at Toys R Us. I guess because you don't see to many men do it, or you see them being dragged in by their wife, but to come to TRU after work in your suit and pick out toys, way sexy.
If you are in your suit and you have the kids with you...........Extra sexy points.

Wishes

This is my holiday wish list.
Yummies
For my aching back
For my kitchen
For my feet
For my arm
For my body
For my family room
For my head
For my hands

Not that I am going to get any of this, but it is a wish list.
What do you want for Christmas?

Turkey Day

I remember being in grade school and the day before Thanksgiving we would have a small party and fun things to do. I remember the teachers writing Thanksgiving on the chalk board and you had to make as many words as you could with the letters from it. I loved stuff like that.
I am going to my Aunt's house tomorrow and will be bringing a couple of my favorite dishes, so I will prep tonight. I love thanksgiving food and I like to cook so its a perfect holiday for me.

This year I am thankful for many things especially my family and our health.
I will also be thinking about people who aren't so lucky and really trying to count my blessings.
Because I am not rich, sometimes I wish I had more or less, or I think someone has a better life then I do but when it really comes down to it I have the best family in the world and really, what more could you ask for?

A Thanksgiving Miracle

Today my kids took a nap. Wait, you don't understand how fabulous this really is, or how happy I am right at this very minute.
They took a nap that didn't require me yelling up the stairs, laying commando style on the floor, threatening, begging or bribing.
Do you know how huge that is?
They went in, laid on their beds and fell asleep. It is a miracle.
Pushing their map time back is such a glorious idea and it really worked.
Yesterday they each took a small bite of mashed potatoes and didn't hurl and now this! It is like leading a new life.

I love today. I love my kids.
And I love all of you who had the suggestions and comments, thanks guys.

Bark MD?

My dog has been drinking massive amounts of water lately and I don't have a good feeling about it. I couldn't get an appointment until Monday night. I wish I could look it up on WebMD, but since she is not a human, I think the symptoms of panting and excessive licking of her butt would be lost.
They should have a Web MD for pets.
then I could look up all the dumb things she does and not have to pay $95 for an office visit to the vet! I could find out why she barks in her sleep, rolls in deer shit constantly, has to go inside/outsie/inside/outside/inside all day looong and even why she must fart only around me.

New Fashions For Moms

I have to email CCG and let her know the new "mom's" fashion of capris are out because the cold winter months are approaching.
It is official, the "Mom" capris have been replaced with velour jogging suits. Black, preferably.
The kids had gym today and at least two moms were dressed in their uniforms with one mom just wearing the pants.

We don't care if they are out of style or if we have more junk then J. Lo has, we will wear our comfy jogging suit with pride.
At least I feel some shame when wearing them, but hey, I have to be comfortable and black hides the mess little kids leave with their hands all over you!

Update

Today I went to pick up the dog from my sister's house. She was taking care of her while we were away on our trip. The kids loved seeing their Aunt and couldn't wait to tell her what they had seen and done.

Jet Blue rocked except for our delays and the one strange man on our plane coming home who I assume was bi-polar and cursed the stewardess and had to be taken off the plane by NJ cops when we landed. Strange and scary.

Disney was so much fun. Seeing the park through my children's eyes was the best and I didn't even get upset when we forgot to go on the "adult" rides.

I am so happy E is home where he belongs. I feel even safer and I just missed the guy.

My ipod nano is my new favorite toy. I love, love, love it maybe even as much as Target. It is addicting to buy songs though and I have to watch myself.

I also love my new sweater from target and even though it isn't the best cashmere in town, you can't beat the price. Plus with two small kids with dirty everything, wearing expensive clothes is not the way to go.

This weekend we have nothing planned and I am thankful because I have a date with TiVo to catch up on all the stuff I have missed the past week.

The Toughest Job

Its hard to be a Mother. I have seen just how hard it is first hand these last 4 weeks. Alone, just me being the disciplinarian, the cook, the driver, the soother, the reader, the only comforter.
I have been tired, sick, and frustrated. I have yelled, cried, had my patience tested, threatened, pleaded, screamed and given it.
I have done it all. I have had the worst, most trying days as a Mom these last couple of weeks. The ones where I wanted to not be a mother to anyone anymore.
Two days ago I had one of those days, but then right before I put them to bed again, right when I was thinking, I can't go on anymore, I just cannot do it one more day, my daughter said "Mommy, you're the best Mommy and I love you".

That is what makes me go on.
I will have bad days but the good always outweighs the bad and you go on.
You just do.
And for that, I am thankful.

Reason #14

Reason #14 why I miss my husband:
I don't make coffee well at all. E makes it when he is home because he is up first. When he is gone I make it every day for myself because I still need it, but it is terrible. It is either too strong or too weak. I just can't get it right no matter how hard I try.

I guess my afternoon will be spent at Starbucks again.
At least they get it right.


And why doesn't starbucks have a drive thru? That would make my life complete. None of the Dunkin Donuts around here have drive thrus either. At home you can spit and it would land on a DD drive thru. Who wants to take two kdis out of their car seats, wait for coffee and put them all back in, I am too lazy for that.
I am too lazy because I haven't had my coffee.
A vicious circle, I tell ya.

What A Loser

We all know how Britney Spears' marriage is going to go. One day she will wake up, millions poorer and realize what a loser he is and dump him ass. She is still supporting him now because I assume she is busy with her baby. Not K-Fedm, the other baby.
Lets play a game, finish this sentence:

If I were K-fed I would....................................

Bury myself in her cleavage & die a happy man

use up as much money as I can before I get tossed

Go get new cornrows and call it a day

Ok, now it is your turn.

This and That

I wonder why a lot of little people seem to never age. Like Gary Coleman and Emmanuel Lewis. It is like they have struck the fountain of youth.

I met two really bratty kids in the kids gym class today. Wow, what brats these two were. One looked to be about 7 (which is strange because why isn't she in school?) and quite overweight. The strangest part is, is that she had something stuffed in her tight shirt, like she was stuffing her bra. I think she was wearing an undershirt, but she kept readjusting her "stuff". It was so weird and I couldn't take my eyes off of her.

My hairstylist always wears gauchos and I find it to be a bit unnerving. I have been going to her for a year now and I think only once was she wearing another type of pant.

Speaking of pants, my favorite pair just ripped down the butt. I am pissed. Damn Gap.
I am on a pants patrol right now looking for some great ones. Any suggestions ladies?
I feel like just getting pregnant so I can wear elastic waists 24/7 and call it a day.

I am so addicted to Laguna Beach and I am fairly embarrassed to admit that. Jason is a dork and I am so wanting a Team LC t-shirt.

To Dream

I had a dream about you last night, I was telling you something, we were laughing. I woke up and reached for the phone to call you, you would love this story. Then it hit me.
Like a huge wave crashing on top of me, I couldn't breathe. I felt like I was tumbling in the waves, drowning.
The realitization.
The truth.
What I swallow down like a huge lump, down deep inside, hoping the memory will never resurface.
The truth. That I will never see you again.
That you are gone, that I can't smell you on my hands after I go home. That your love won't envelope me like the warmest of all blankets.
Never.
Never.
How can that be?
Why can't it be easier, why can't I accept it.
Why did it have to be you.
Why.
Why.
Why.
Why.
Why.
Why.
Why.

Another Day

My Mom was here the past two days to help me out and to enjoy her grandkids. The kids had a blast trick or treating, they were polite, only took one candy and were very excited jsut to be dressed up. Well, and they loved the candy. They were all sweet jesus this crap is goooood.
I looked at them with a look that told them I know, my friends, I know.

My Mom was a big help but as usual we drove each other to drink and she headed out to the liquor store after the kids went to bed for more supplies.
Halloween is fun!

As far as my day is going now, all I can say is that I got a much needed manicure & pedicure, and I am a different woman because of it.