Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Home Again

I am trying to enjoy the last few weeks of summer before my kids head off for kindergarten. They will start their school career in a couple of weeks and I still cannot wrap my head around that. Wasn't it just last month I found out I was pregnant with them? Wasn't it just yesterday I was teaching them to talk and walk?
Now they are their own people with thoughts and ideas and they are so very funny. They are great people and I although I have begged for the day when I can have a small break from them, I will miss them terribly.
Who am I if I am not R & L's full time mommy?
I guess it is time to find out.

I am trying to savor these days with my family because we all won't be together everyday for a long time. E has taken a job in New Hampshire and will start in September. He will work Monday through Thursday and come home on the weekends. I will stay here with the three kids until he is settled, and then we will move up there.
I don't want to go. I have fought, cried and screamed. I don't want to leave my family, but we have no choice. He cannot get his career started back up here so he is going in a different direction in his home state.
I only agreed to go if E promised to move me back to NJ as soon as we can.
He promised.
They say you can never go home again, but I would really like to try.

4 comments:

  1. Anonymous8:59 AM

    I can only imagine how hard a move like that is. A few years ago my husband & I toyed w/the idea of moving from CA to WA. It was something we thought hard about, but in the end I couldn't do it b/c ALL my family is here. Thankfully we're in CA to stay.

    Good luck.

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  2. Anonymous10:52 AM

    Sometimes, as much as we hate it, financial reasons dictate where we live.

    Best of luck to ya on that front...

    As far as the kids...they never stop growing!!

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  3. You might be surprised after a few weeks. My hubby took a job overseas (a few years ago), he settled in and then six months later the kids and I moved over. I was grateful to finally be all under the same roof. It took some major adjustment, but as long as the family is together, that's all I care about.

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  4. Anonymous6:00 AM

    I hope that where you move to is very nice and everyone is friendly so you'll have support there too. And good luck with the babies starting school. Just don't follow the bus around all morning crying, ok?

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