Thursday, September 08, 2005

Midnight Dreary

I was startled awake, not remembering where I was or what I was doing. Slowly I got my bearings, I was in bed, in my house. Look at the clock, ok it is 3am, why is my heart racing, why am I sweaty? Ok, now it is coming back to me, I had a nightmare, again.
But what was it about? Yes, E was ignoring me, he was distant, I think he was cheating on me.

So I did what any wife would do when she just had a dream that her husband cheated, I elbowed him in the ribs. "What is wrong?!" he whispered forcefully, "you cheated on me" I told him.
He held me tight against him and whispered " I would never do that, it was a bad dream, now go back to sleep." But I couldn't.
I know he wouldn't, he never has but still it worries me.
Not that I think he would, because that is not my worst fear, it is of being alone.

Alone in the world without him.
Then I tuck his arm even tighter around me and try to fall back into a sleep without fear.


  1. every once in a while it occurs to me that we may leave this world independent of one another.

    then i quick go buy shoes.

    scary, this love thing....

  2. I couldn't help but laugh at this. I saw this on Newhart (remember that show?) years ago. In one show his wife was angry with him because he was a jerk to her in her dream. I have to admit that I've been on the receiving end of that every once in a while.

  3. I hope to find someone soon that I can poke in the ribs in the middle of the night. Not sure if I should've found this post cute, but I did.


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