Midnight Dreary

I was startled awake, not remembering where I was or what I was doing. Slowly I got my bearings, I was in bed, in my house. Look at the clock, ok it is 3am, why is my heart racing, why am I sweaty? Ok, now it is coming back to me, I had a nightmare, again.
But what was it about? Yes, E was ignoring me, he was distant, I think he was cheating on me.

So I did what any wife would do when she just had a dream that her husband cheated, I elbowed him in the ribs. "What is wrong?!" he whispered forcefully, "you cheated on me" I told him.
He held me tight against him and whispered " I would never do that, it was a bad dream, now go back to sleep." But I couldn't.
I know he wouldn't, he never has but still it worries me.
Not that I think he would, because that is not my worst fear, it is of being alone.

Alone in the world without him.
Then I tuck his arm even tighter around me and try to fall back into a sleep without fear.