Mondays

Mondays usually get me down, but today is different. I guess it is because I am so busy I don't even have time to sit down.
This weekend was busy we had two parties to go to both 1.5 hours away. My nephews are sick and I think Baby A caught something from one of them because today he has a runny nose, red eyes and a stuffed head. Poor thing. It has been so long since either of my kids has been sick, I have to call the doctor and ask what to give him and what kind of dose.

I have to go grocery shopping and I really dread it. The store is going to be packed, but the closer it gets until Christmas, I know the more packed it will be. So today is the day. I am having Christmas at my house this year (first time) and my list is like 700 items long. I am armed with coupons though and I am hoping to escape unscathed.
I can hope.

I am missing my Dad a lot, this time of year is very hard. I feel my emotions are like waves with its ups and downs. I wonder if it does get easier, it doesn't seem to, yet. Maybe one day. But then I wonder if that would be better, would I feel guilty if it didn't hurt as much as it does now? Would I be better off or would it be like letting go of someone you never want to let go of? I don't know, and nobody can give me those answers, those are for time to tell me.
I can hope.