Tuesday, June 26, 2007

If You Wait For Me, Then I Will Come For You

My husband is going away on business (again) tomorrow morning and will not be back until Friday night. Not too bad, but because I have no one else down here, missing him is intensified.

E and I met at work. I didn't want to date him, he persisted and I relented. We spent all of our time outside of work with each other and it was remarkable how close we became in such a little amount of time. Two months after we started dating, he had a trip planned to visit his sister and he asked if I wanted to come. I decided not to because I wanted to move out of my house and I wanted to save money (mistake, live at home as long as you can to save money, ass!). So he left for his small vacation and I was sick the first day. I was tired, I cried all the time and I felt sick. It was pathetic and I knew it but I was also so taken with how hard I fell for him in such a short amount of time. After all, I was so young, what did I know about love?
Right then, I knew I would marry him one day.

Still now more then 10 years after he took that first trip to visit his sister, I get sick when he leaves. Sometimes I sob as I watch the car service pull out of the driveway. Sometimes I just can't look, but I cry when I find the "I Love You" notes throughout the house. Other times I don't cry, but I am so sad, I never feel the same until my husband walks back in to our home and makes me whole again.

After all of these years, I still miss him. We don't have a perfect marriage, believe me we do not. We have had our problems, we have had a lot of stress in the past 4 years, we have raised our kids with virtually no help or breaks. We have had death, we have had health scares, we have had a miscarriage, we have had financial struggles, we have had trust issues. We work through it, we do it together. At the end of the day, I still love him as much as I did so many years ago, when I was too young to know about true love.
Tomorrow I will be so sad as his car pulls out of our driveway, again, but I know I will be OK once he comes back to me, as long as we are together.


  1. Sounds like he's now out of the doghouse with the "to me" comment.

  2. Awwww dang girl!

    Hopefully time will pass quickly before he's home again.

  3. Anonymous12:19 PM

    This week will FLY by, you'll see.

    And I don't have those feelings when my hubby goes out of town. Hm. Love him to pieces, but, well.. nevermind. LOL

  4. That's so sweet. I hope it flies by for you.

  5. awww, that is so sweet.

    Me, I kinda like it when my husband goes away, cuz we can eat cereal for supper!

  6. Anonymous7:37 PM

    That was a beautiful post. I hope he knows how much you're about him.

    I may have to read that again. ;)


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