Everyone has dates that they keep in their heads and hearts.
Many only you know and acknowledge and some are shared with a select few.
They are anniversaries of sadness, of loss. There are no celebrations on these dates, there is remembrance, silence and introspect.
Maybe it is the due date of a baby that never was, or the date you met the one that got away.
Today is my date, the one I carry in my heart, the day I don't want to get out of bed, the one where I wish I could erase from my memory.
It is the day my Dad died.
This is my post from last year, and everything is the same.
It is just a year later.
7 years ago
I'm so sorry for your loss. The freshness of the pain dulls, but alas, the pain always remains.
ReplyDeleteI lost my father quickly to Leukemia back in 1999, and I don't go a day without thinking of him. I carry him with me always, and at times, I do hear him talking to me and guiding me. Oh how I wish he could hold my babies, just once.
I'm sorry this is your day of pain. It's a day when I wish I lived closer so I could help you thru this day - make you some comfort food, comb your hair and give you a massage. Hang on the couch with you and watch a chick movie. Take care of your kids for you so you can nap. Sounds silly to some, but you need to be taken care of today. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you today.
Know that your Daddy is with you now, and always. He's holding your hand, and he'll always love you.
Again, I'm so sorry.
Aahhh, Tuesday...what could I possibly say? I'm just so terribly sorry it hurts afresh. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts today and I hope you'll let me in, even for just a minute or two.
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ReplyDeleteThe pain never seems to go away.
I hope the day goes quickly enough for you, I know you just want it to pass.
I am so sorry for the terrible loss you suffered. I can't begin to imagine the pain it has caused you. Just know that there are those of us who are keeping you in our thoughts today.
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I'm so sorry. Sadness anniversaries are the hardest. Please know that there are many of us thinking of you today.
ReplyDeleteI understand. I miss my mommy more and more every day. Big hugs to you, honey.
ReplyDeleteHope that today is bit easier for you. Sorry about your loss
ReplyDeleteI'm very sorry for the loss of your father. I can't even imagine how hard it is for you. I'm sure where ever you are: your dad is smiling down on you.
ReplyDeleteI am new to your blog. I enjoy getting to know more about you.
I'm so sorry. I lost my father just about two years ago, too, and the pain is still there. It gets a little easier, but not much, everyday. I just try to remember the good memories, and that eases my heart.
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I lost my father this past Labour day and it is comforting to read about people who really do understand. Thanks for articulating what I have been feeling these past 7 months
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