Monday, October 01, 2007

I Alone

Did I mention that E is going away for business this week? He is, and I am bummed. It is just he and I in this parenting thing, I do not have family or friends close by to get breaks or to visit so when he leaves, it is just me and the kids.
It is lonely.

I feel like a failure to even admit that. I am lonely, I depend too much on my husband for help and for companionship. He is it for me on a daily basis. Sure I talk to my friends and family daily and I can write here as an outlet, but it is just not the same. I am a pack animal, I need my peeps to make me happy. I rarely want to be alone. I am a person that needs people.
Does that make me strange? No, but it is not something I particularly like about myself either. I want to be stronger, more independent, like to be alone with myself more.

What is it about yourself that you would change if you could?

Then go check out my post on banning portable love.


  1. I'm kinda the opposite way. I like the alone times that I get. I cherish those hours at night after everyone else is in bed and I can just be alone in my thoughts.

    As for something to change, probably finding a way to be more comfortable with and talkative during social situations.

  2. I feel your pain. My hubby has been traveling a good bit lately (and stressed out at work so crabby when he is home). It's no fun.

    If I could change anything, I'd definitely give myself some stick-to-it-ness. I start lots of cool things but finish nothing.


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