Friday, January 30, 2009

The Final Countdown

I am sentimental.
I save everything, I try to relive memories by holding on to things, even though I know it is "just stuff". the memories will be there even if the stuff is not.
I have gotten better over the last few years, but still have a ways to go.
I hate change.
I stiffen at the thought of new things, new places to live. Instead of thinking of it as a learning exercise, I reject it.
I know that new experiences are what let you grow. Somebody tell my heart that.
I will miss this house, the first we ever bought, the only one my children have known the the one I brought my baby home from the hospital to.
I will miss my dad, who I feel like I am abandoning, even though I know that is ridiculous.


I loved growing up in New Jersey. I lived 15 minutes from NYC and I had the best of both worlds, living in the suburbs and partying in NYC. I love the Jersey shore, the mountains, the diners, the variety of amazing foods, the fact that no store is ever more than 15 minutes away.
Sure it is fun to joke about NJ and the big 80s hair, the accent, the Sopranos, but NJ is like your sibling, only you can make fun of it, when someone else does, watch out.
There are things I don't like about New Jersey like the congestion, the traffic, the high tolls and taxes.
I will miss you New Jersey, you were good to me, but I won't be that far away from you and I promise to visit often.
How else am I going to get a decent bagel?


  1. You packed your memories, right? You'll be fine, good luck with the move.

  2. When you've lived somewhere almost your entire life, it's traumatic to move away. I felt the same way about my father, too. Give yourself time. When we moved out of California to Seattle 3.5 years ago it took at least an entire year before I left like, "Okay, I think can do this".
    Good luck Sweetie, you're in my thoughts.

  3. I've made two major moves and I'm with Monkey Girl. It takes a year before you really feel settled. Good luck!

  4. Oh, I hate change too. I'd be scared to move too, but you'll be brave. This is the best thing for you. I think you're brave for moving. Good luck and keep us all posted!

  5. Hope you were able to do it all in one day! agh!!

    Hope you have a safe journey. Luckily, you can take your memories with you and get to make new ones as well.


  6. Hope things have gone well with the move. I can understand your feelings. My place now is what I've known the majority of my life. It would be hard to uproot, but when the new roots settle in the new place, you'll have new joys to discover!


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